I have conversations with people that frustrate me constantly

It's like I am here and I am giving you my undivided attention

And you are halfway here and also somewhere over there so you get the main points

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Are you actually hearing what I am saying? Are you listening to me?

I feel very few people do this, and I want more of this

When I am having a conversation with someone I want their full attention and I deserve to have theirs

Maybe I feel this way because I grew up with my mother always being this way

Half in half out

For her it is more of an excuse, I know that she is hard of hearing, and therefore she can easily get away with this

Maybe I feel this way because I have always felt so misunderstood in my life

Very few people on this Earth have I felt a deep sincere connection to

Like a "you get me" vibe

These people are rare for me, and I hold them so close to me

Today I felt I wasn't being heard

I was in a conversation where I mainly did the listening

I didn't have anything to contribute honestly

It was like a lot of words were being said but a whole lot of nothing was actually being said

Like an email with hella fluff except this is real life and I am just a human placeholder at this point

I am so much more important than that

I don't want to have these superficial conversation about things we all know the bottom line about

I am so fed up with all of the bullshit we spew and we hear

Words are so powerful

Words can have such an impact